Random thoughts..

This is the first thanksgiving I've been alone and single in a really long time. I'm thankful for that. I've been so alone lately but it's been a good thing. I haven't had any desire to talk to any girls or care about dating. It's lonely yeah but I'm ok with it. Finally.  I'm waiting to find someone who is proud of who they are. Who won't hide it from anyone and who is faithful and someone I can trust. 2013 was filled with just shitty situations. Yeah I'm guilty  for lettin most of it happen. I never claimed to be innocent. A lot was me thinking I could give people who have wronged me a second chance turning life into a tornado. I'm pretty nice when it come to grudges. I don't hold them. But I have learned my lesson that's for sure. I haven't written in this in a long time but I am thinking about doing it a lot more. To keep my head clear bc I really don't have anyone to talk to. Anyways. Happy thanksgiving. To the horrible people I know and the good;) hope it was great!

To her...

All I know is that you're so nice, You're the nicest thing I've seen. I wish that we could give it a go, See if we could be something. I wish I was your favorite girl, I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world. I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile, I wish the way that I dressed was your favorite kind of style. I wish you couldn't figure me out, But you always wanna know what I was about. I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset, I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met. I wish you had a favorite beauty spot that you loved secretly, 'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see. Basically, I wish that you loved me,I wish that you needed me, I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three. I wish that without me your heart would break, Yea, I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake. I wish that without me you couldn't eat, Yea, I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep. Look, All i know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen And I wish we could see if we could be something..Yea, I wish we could see if we could be something...