Taking it a day at a time..

So it's like week 2 of the new life I guess u could call it. Things are actually going better than I thought. Derby is going amazing. Which I plan to insert a derby blog in after this;) so I'll write about that more there. The different moving situation is more normal than I thought it would be.. Meaning I tend to not sleep well without being complete settled in. I haven't unpacked a thing and I'm living out of my clothes hamper. Which is Kool. I don't mind. it's a small room but ive made it cozy.. I have my squishy pillow and my fan. I'm good to go!

I've been hanging out with Emily more which is good for me. She always wants to do something be it going out or laying and watching law and order and that's good bc it keeps my mind off life and the past. She's a good friend. We went to jacks and i totally made fun of her flirting with the bartender. She said she's never taking me out when she flirts with guys again. I told her to help me flirt with a girl. Bc I'm horrible at it hahaha. Never been good at it really. Gonna try and change that. I've realized that until I become completely 100% comfortable with myself I'll never be able to actually confidently have a good relationship. Bc I'm always gonna be overlooked and not noticed. And there will always be someone or something better.. And I'm tired of feeling that. I want to be the someone or something better. I'm not looking for anything from anyone. I wanna meet new people and focus on derby. Bc that is going really well for me.

Things for the most part are going better than planned. I always try to do something and keep myself busy. And working so much. I'm thankfully getting another shot at this golf course thing I found out tonight. Lelani is In charge of hiring so. She wants me there. Finger crossed. I tried a year ago almost and didn't do well. I dont interview well and they asked me what was my weakest thing about me or
Something I could change. I told them that I wish I interviewed better. They didn't think I was outgoing. Which if u know me. I totes am! Very! But I clam up in to a ball of nerves. Kinda like I do with the ladies which is why I bomb that too it seems hahah.

So wish me luck on that. That will be a full time high paying job and that's what I need! And I won't have time for bullshit and derby will be my gf;) anyways I'm gonna switch over and talk about that now so check out my derby blog listed in my profile over on the right! Thanks for reading;)

~Jenn~