Waiting for the rain to stop, destination beautiful...

I have literally looked at this blank screen for 45 mins..I don't know how to even write what happened, but it became a big thing and I cant tell the story verbally one more time, so why not write about it. My Sunday started off like most of them. I skipped out on Derby conditioning bc I couldn't get out of bed. I didn't leave work Sat night until 430ish..I was so exhausted. I know having three jobs is responsible, but my body is slowing down. Not to mention Derby too. but that actually makes me feel good. The boxing did wonders for me, and I cant wait to do it more. Last night however I skipped boxing...now back to Sunday. I woke up and pretty much ad nothing to do. So I text Alex, she wanted me to come up to Cornelius, so I headed up around 430..we met at Starbucks and of course I got a Hazelnut frap. the only coffee i drink ever. we sat on a park bench until about 830 talking about anything you could think of. She and I have always been good at lots of talking. Then as we are heading to go back to Starbucks she sees some of her friends which turn in to hanging out there and then we got invited to see Jackass 3D, which by the way was so funny. So about 1030 we head to do that. I wanted to Hang with Abby so after that we drove further up to mooresville and hung out at Big Als with Abby and Morgan.



The night was a great night, stress free and just fun. About 230 we left Big Als and Alex and I headed back down to her neck of the woods to grab my car..we then sat until about 345am talking in the parking lot again about everything. Even had a cop come by To "check"on us. So i was like ok i need to go, its late as heck...so I got in my car and left. I got to my apartment at about 440 am..and thats when it happened..



I saw young black boy walking past me..as I tried to find somewhere to park. I found a space and grabbed all my stuff. I get out of the car and there he is..standing there looking at me. He says, " i need use your phone." I was a little scared but thought, eh maybe its nothing bad. I gave him my phone, thinking ok if he means harm take the effing phone and run...leave me alone. He then said" I got left here i need a ride or i need money." I then thought shit. ok I can say no and walk away then he follows me..or finds out where I live. I didn't wanna put Beth in danger. I said "ok. are you going to try to hurt me?" he just looked at me. He walked to the side of my car and started to get in. I said ok maybe he just needs a ride, either way im fucked right now...so i get in the car...he tells me to go a certain way and I listen. We end up on Choyce Ave somewhere off nations ford, in a very bad neighborhood, and i thought to myself...is this how im going to die? In this disgusting place..with this fuck face..I am not gonna let some 20 year old delinquent take my life from me..He told me to stop that this is where he lived...and then it happened...he pulled a black pistol with a laser on it and pointed it at me..



He asked me to give him everything , my car, keys,phone and money. I looked at him and the first thing out of my mouth was " are you fucking serious? NO!" Probably not the best response, then he pointed it at my head right on my right temple and said "please dont make me shoot you." I talked to him, tried to reason with him, told him I wasn't going to give him anything and it became a shouting match..i put my car in drive...he then pointed his gun to my floor board and shot my car...the bullet hole is a very creepy reminder...I am not sure even right now, why I didn't comply...In my head...and I don't mean this in any disrespect...but I just had to rebuild my life..I had everything I worked hard for taking from me at the drop of a dime...and I snapped on him...I was fuck no you're not getting a damn thing from me, I have worked to hard for my money and that car and that phone. Now if you know me, you know I do not give a shit about materialistic things at all. But it was the fact of everything I have been through in the past 6 months.. I was like FUCK NO! this is not happening, I know I have insurance and could replace anything I have. But I wasn't going to give in to anyone...so in a way that fueled that fire I gave him.



I told him over and over he didn't have to do this, i would give him money, that I understand where he has been and I get it, but he wasn't getting anything of mine. I also spoke of the GPS built in my car, i told him he wouldn't make it far. He said ok well give me money, he grabbed my makeup bag from the backseat and emptied it out and then popped open my glove box, the whole time holding the gun at me...then he pointed it at my leg and said Please dnt make me shoot you.( i thought shit if he shoots i cant sakte..???)..I said, And i don't know why, "you're not going to shoot me.".I told him I am sure he was better than this..I said " ok if you need money ill give it to you" i asked him to step out of the car and I would give it to him, he was like you better or ill fucking kill you...I had about 60 or 70 in my wallet...I took out 12...and he slowly got out of my car...i threw the money in his face and stepped on the gas..the door slammed on his hand and I took off, I then was like fuck this. He isnt going to get away with this...I slammed on the breaks and whipped my car around. And gunned my car towards at him, he jumped in a yard then ran through a another yard, I then got in front of him and he chased me, i wanted him to chase me while i was on the phone with 911. He chased me for a few then the cops came, he jumped in the bushes and got away..



Talking to the cops was fun and interesting..i was so terrified of what kinda guts i just had and the cops didn't understand it. They even had the nerve to suggest I had him in that neighborhood bc it was a good place to buy drugs, hahaha I laughed. I was like if you people knew who I was and how i felt about that you'd slap yourself..I gave him a ride bc he scared the shit out of me. I get it, it was dumb! But It happened for a reason, if i hadn't let him in my car, then he prolly would have just shot me at my complex..So I regret nothing..



I had to wait for the CSI people to get into my car..and look and photograph everything and the bullet is still in my car...so that's kinda disturbing, they told me they would have to destroy my car and floor board to get , but they got the shell casing. I finally get home at 7 am, been up for 20 hours at this point..and I wake Beth up. Which she freaks out a lot. Tell her the story. I get a call from the police, said they found a young black man breaking in cars off arrowood at Ruby Tuesdays...ask me to come identify him. It was him, they found the gun on him too...he shot another car..and yeah. What a dumb fuck. But they got him...now what? I have no idea...Ill find out I guess.



The apartment management wants to move us out and get us another place, we watched the footage of him sneaking in the gated area...and stealing someones bike before he gets to me..they wanna give me a apartment with a garage...They weren't responsible for what happened but they still wanna help. which is awesome.



So why did I do what I did..I had a ton of things that went through my mind..My past life...things I had, people I have loved...It does flash before your eyes...that is true..Someone wanted me around..somehwere...so I am still here..I am still struggling with myself why I fought back..Why I literally looked at something right in the face that could have possibly killed me and I just didn't care...I kept thinking I went through all these scenarios when I was in the Military of what do do if being held at gun point...I wanted to hit it out of his hand, punch him kick him...but I just wanted to talk...and calm him down...let him know it will get better if he wanted it to...and it saved my life..I feel like its a dream..



I have a had some flash backs I guess you could say..It just pops in my head and I cant concentrate, i thought about it all today..I don't know if it made me stronger or broke me down more...But yeah that's pretty much it. I wanted to share this with you, to let you know it can happen anytime anywhere...and there is nothing you can do about it..well to a point. I got lucky, i don't deny that. Finally Luck right? ha...but be safe and don't walk around alone at 5 in the morning..not a good idea..So anyways thanks for all the calls and texts and messages and everything...I feel lucky to know so many good people in my life.



this experience and has put more in prospective for me. I guess I always have known whats important in life and I have never taking anyone or anything for granted, but maybe those of you who do...maybe you shouldn't..just a thought..



thanks for reading..



~Jenn~