The Space Between,Where you're smiling high. The bullets in our firefight. Is where I'll be hiding, waiting for you, The rain that falls, Splash in your heart. Ran like sadness down the window into your room..I feel sick. I do not care for it. I don't know if its because of all the working, or the stress, or both. When I get super stressed out I tend to catch a cold or something. . Ugh I hate it. My body collapses under stress, I thought I was doing a great job at just being happy. Hell I have been working so much for stuff that I kinda lost, so it felt good to get it all back and then some..but I am just sad sometimes I guess..
I hate that anyone can get to me, and that some people love actually knowing they get to you..its not a good thing and its not OK. I am surrounded by girls who love to be treated like shit. They will ditch you for a douche canoe, even when you try so hard to make them smile, they run to that person that ultimately makes them miserable in the end.. Why do you think girls do this? I mean I care about people up until they hurt me, or do something stupid like leave you for someone, or hurt you, or lie, etc...But As soon as that happens, I cut ties, I still care about them. But I am done with them. Because in the end you'll lose your self..that's not OK in my book.
I have decided i will probably never find that "one".. sure Ill have people tell me i love you forever.... Its funny now i silly i must have looked...with all the girls I let in..i know you cant control your feelings...but it is OK for you to tell that person, look...this prolly wont be forever...or if ur not sure don't say forever..its a horrible word.. because forever seems like the shortest amount of time to me. PS this blog reflects a current situation not to misunderstood from anything in the past...I dont know how much more i can be clear on this...
Anyways, That's about all I got, I don't even know where I am going with this, I am just so bothered by so much and so much drama and lying going on, I just don't understand...I am glad to work so much, so I don't expose myself to it anymore..I need a lot of new people in my life...and I have met a few, so I am excited to see where this goes...I need to look forward, I saw on someones face book....you need to look out the windshield, not ur rear view mirror...I'm thinking California more and more now. Bc I wanna be something I was born to be...
OK i need sleep, sickness will not go away with no sleep. thanks for reading. gnight!
~jenn~
hmmm....it's almost like i know exactly what you're talking about in this blog. I hope things get better for you, mija. try not to let things get you down. "no day, but today", right? learn it. live it. love it. you just gotta do you. that's all we can all do. cheer up, charlie. i'll be back in a few days to turn that frown upside down. :-) i hate having a sourpuss on muh hands ;-)
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